Thursday, July 21, 2011

Keep Striving

Long time no see, blogger :) I’ve finally come back after my first three days studying as a twelfth grader -______- Being a twelfth grader, sometimes makes me sick, either mentally or physically :( Today I’m going to blab in Bahasa (and a little English). It would be easier for me to convey all my heavy feelings in Bahasa.

So yesterday, I cried during the night. I had a dilemma. No. It’s supposed to be QUATRILEMMA. I was totally GALAU last night. What’s for? I have confusion in whether I take the TOEFL iBT Course or not. Serius, kemarin saya sampai nangis-nangis mewek gak jelas sewaktu diminta mutusin apakah melanjutkan les TOEFL atau nggak. Kenapa saya galau? Masalahnya untuk melanjutkan les itu butuh 5,4 juta untuk 6 bulan! Bayangin dong, ini les selesainya Januari dan baru akan REAL TEST kemungkinan antara bulan Februari sampai Maret. IT’S TOO LONG! Apakah gak kelamaan? Yang ada semua uni luar juga udah selesai buka pendaftarannya~ Udah gitu gak ada jaminan langsung tes benerannya lagi -____- yang ada duitnya diporotin mulu :( Aside from that, I also didn’t like the atmosphere of the previous class. Saya berasa di-anaktiri-kan di situ. Yang diperhatiin selalu yang pinter. Gimana yang kurang mau maju coba kalau gitu. (Lagian yang udah pinter dan nilainya tinggi ngapain les sih? Gak bijaksana banget, buang-buang duit orangtua :()

Nah, gara-gara galau kemarin, sekarang saya jadi takut dan pesimis. For me, it sounds like… SHOULD I JUST GIVE UP ON MY DREAMS TO STUDY ABROAD AND DECIDE TO STAY HERE, IN INDONESIA? Mikirin beginian cuman bikin saya nangis. Sekolah/kuliah ke luar negeri memang sudah jadi impian saya sejak kecil. Sejauh ini saya sudah gagal sekali. Waktu mau meng-apply beasiswa SMA ke Singapura. Tapi, kemarin papa bilang, “Walaupun kamu misalnya nanti bener-bener dapet beasiswa di luar negeri yang full gratis, papa gak yakin bisa biayain kamu untuk hidup sehari-harinya.” Bagaimana rasanya? For the hundred times of my life, saya merasakan lagi gimana mimpi yang sudah saya bangun sejak lama terlihat mau runtuh dan hancur berkeping-keping begitu saja. Seperti Uno-stacko. Saya gak nyalahin kenapa saya dilahirkan dengan orang tua yang kemampuan finansialnya pas-pasan kok. Bukan itu. Di sisi lain, saya ingin sekali mewujudkan mimpi saya, tapi di sisi lain, saya juga kasihan dengan orang tua. Sudah terlalu banyak beban pengeluaran saya yang harus ditanggung mereka sampai saya sebesar ini :( Saya ingin membanggakan papa sekaligus meringankan bebannya (but how?). Bersyukurlah kalian yang orang tuanya mampu biayain sekolah kalian hingga ke luar negeri dengan uang sendiri. Kalian tinggal milih sesuka hati mau universitas di mana, jurusan apa dan selesailah perkara.

Up till now, I have been thinking about my dad’s words last night. Mungkin saya harus sadar dengan realita yang ada ya. Kalaupun saya dapet beasiswa ke luar, apakah papa mampu biayain untuk biaya hidup sehari-hari? Tapi… rasanya saya masih tak bisa terima. Mungkin bener sih if people said, “Jangan berharap terlalu tinggi, nanti kalau jatuh malah sakit banget.”

Back to the TOEFL iBT course matter, I have come with a decision: I WON’T TAKE THAT CLASS, SINCE IT WAS SUCH A WASTE OF TIME + MONEY. If we take the real test, it needs only $170 (much cheaper right than have to attend the class?) Moreover, sekarang saya udah kelas 12. Setiap hari pulang jam 15.30 and I have decided not to burden myself with too much courses. I don’t join Student Assembly during High School (that’s a hard decision, of course) or any extracurricular activities this year. For now, saya cuma ikut les Mafia. Itu pun waktunya fleksibel, sesuka saya. Now, it’s time to be more focused on subjects in the school. I don’t want to be bothered with that course which has a tendency to waste my time and money. I don’t say that TOEFL Course is useless. NO. I can study TOEFL iBT by myself and then take the real test. I hope the result later won’t be that bad. At least I have to reach 81 points :s

Yah… jadi hal-hal semacam itulah yang suka bikin saya galau sekarang. Nangis mewek di kamar malem-malem. Kalau beberapa teman saya galaunya karena cowok, saya justru galau dengan pilihan-pilihan hidup yang kadang sangat beresiko untuk hidup saya ke depannya. I’m 17 going to 18 this September. People said I’ve already entered USIA PANIK zone. I’m still single (and very happy XD) I have no time to get into such a relationship, literally. Temen cowok saya selama SMA aja cuman bisa diitung pake jari, gimana mau cepet dapet pacar coba sih? Lagian, saya sudah punya pacar kok. Banyak malah. Bisa ganti-ganti tiap hari :P (Thanks to JE Boys)

OK, I should end this post, very soon before the topic extent into some unrelated and unimportant things :P

Once again, tentang mimpi-mimpi itu (yang akhir-akhir ini kelihatannya makin rapuh dan siap hancur seperit Uno Stacko). I will keep striving for my dreams, till the end :) Like St. Angela’s said, “Bertekun dan Maju Sampai Akhir” (Y) I do believe, with God’s guidance, everything will go well. I believe that God has already made the best plan for me.







Sunday, July 17, 2011

Keep Calm and STRIVE TILL THE END

Tomorrow... will definitely be the FIRST DAY of my ONE-YEAR-suffering and struggling. Loads of tests, tons of assignments, kartul, UAS, UN, uni-matters and so on. I don't know what to say. I have to be strong in both mentally and physically. Keep calm and STRIVE TILL THE END~ This year is suppose to be my last year to attend Ursuline school. It's been 14 years since my first time entering Ursuline school~ FIGHT! GANBARETSUGO~ You just need to be survived at least for another 9 MONTHS!!!

Saturday, July 16, 2011

All I Want to do Now

I think I'm gonna explode today. I can't stand this circumstance anymore. This is more like... when a teenager rebelled -____- All I want to do now is... TO SCREAM TOWARDS THE OCEANNNNN.... I want to release all of my problems, my sadness, and this agitated feeling~~~ I want TO BE FREE as well as a bird~~~ Fly away from my problems x(

P.S : someone please take me to the a certain place where I could release all my emotional feelings~~~

Friday, July 15, 2011

A Message to Heaven

Dear Mom,

Today is July 15th. Mom, should you're stay here with me, today would be your 43th birthday :')) HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! I know you're still there. Up there. In heaven :') Always looking at me and taking care of me :D It's been 5 years since you left me and dad. Time flies, no? Now I'm already in my last year in High School. One more step until I reach the university.
You know mom, sometimes there is time that I missed you so much. I miss your smile, your chatter, and your expression when you scolded me :')

I hope you will be always happy up there :'D
And also, please send my prayer to God, mom :') Hope the best for my karya tulis, ujian sekolah, ujian nasional and also... what major I should take in the university :)

Lastly... I want to present this for you :'))

If I Saw You in Heaven
(Eric Clapton)

would you know my name
if i saw you in heaven
would it be the same
if i saw you in heaven

I must be strong
and carry on
'cause i know i don't belong here in heaven

would you hold my hand
if i saw you in heaven
would you help me stand
if i saw you in heaven

I'll find my way through night and day
'cause I know I just can't stay here in heaven

Time can bring you down
time can bend your knees
time can break your heart
have you beggin' please
beggin' and please

beyond the door there's peace I'm sure
and I know there'll be no more tears in heaven

would you know my name
if I saw you in heaven
would it be the same
if i saw you in heaven

I must be strong
and carry on
'cause i know i don't belong here in heaven

'cause i know i don't belong here in heaven

Mom... if I saw you in heaven... I want to hug you with my biggest and warmest hug, to kiss you and to talk to you about all my problems :')

xoxo, Eugenia



Wednesday, July 13, 2011

God Give Me Strength

It's been 3 days since my first day in my senior year. How did ya feel? If I could describe my feeling, I would describe it with 7ICONS's song "Gak... gak... gak kuat... " HAHAHA But it's true. That's the best word that suitable with what I feel now. I'm feeling so weak, exhausted, useless and kind of... all my efforts during my first and second year was being taken for granted. I REGRETTED ENTERING SCIENCE CLASS. I'm not supposed to be in this major, I think. I want to take either Business Administration/Visual Communication Design/Art and Media in the university. So, why do I have to enter Science class? I think it was my biggest mistake :(

But, nevertheless, dad always said that it's not wrong if I entered Science class. You probably burdened by tons of assignments, kartul matters, loads of test, etc. But in the end, you will get the benefit from it. You have to be a definite tough, not to be fragile here. But... HOW? Today I arrived home at 4 pm, after went to the Japan Foundation. Took a nap for 1 hour. And still got a Math homework to do. Gosh~ I'm gonna DIE AT A YOUNG AGE if I still survive in this hectic circumstance :(( Seriously, at this rate, Science class must be killing me softly -______-

Well, am not gonna talk too much here. Gotta go to bed earlier, need to save my energy. Sleep, as long as you can sleep properly. That's my motto for now :) I think during this 12th grade, I will have so many sleepless nights -_____- So sleep, as long as you can sleep properly ;D
And one thing.. tomorrow I gotta settle all things. Hope the topic will be fixed, as soon as possible.

BYE-BYE^^

P.S : God, give me strength. I beg your pardon, O, Lord


Monday, July 11, 2011

XII IPA 1 / 13

Welcoming my new class :) XII IPA 1 (I still can't believe I'm officially a 12th grader)

Lucky I got the same class with some of my besties :D I'M SO HAPPY 'BOUT THAT *thank God you granted my wish* Another good thing was that I didn't get the same class with the genius one *you-know-who*. At least it wouldn't make me too depressed, at all :D At first, I thought this class was okay and the homeroom teacher was nice too. I hope so :D

And anyway... XII IPA 1 / 13 --> it's lucky THIRTEEN \o.o/ God, why thirteen? I just hope that this number will bring me A BUNCH OF LUCK for this whole one year ^^

About being a twelfth grader... ah~ It's can't be described. So many stuffs you have to think more seriously. Time really flies, no? It felt like yesterday I just passed my first day in eleventh grade, but now, I'm already in my senior year. No more parties, no more 'hebeh-hebeh'. Just one more year in High School. I hope I could create many best memories to be remembered with my friends :') Let's enjoy our last year in High School! Don't forget to study hard, pray hard and also... PLAY HARD hahah :D Just let it flow ;)

GIVE YOUR BEST SHOTS IN EVERYTHING YOU DO!
STOP DREAMING, START EXECUTING~~~
*your dream is just one step further than now on, Nia^^ ganbareeeee!!!*




Sunday, July 10, 2011

Prepare My Mind and Heart

Kay. IT'S OVER. HOLIDAY IS OVER. Tomorrow I gotta go to school (again) for like 3856 times in my life -_____- I'm officially 12th grader *sigh* Just another one year before I finally reach university. Gonna be my last year being in the Ursuline school :( I SHOULD enjoy all this-one-year to the fullest. But the question is : CAN I?

New class, definitely. I think I will never get a class like PASTA anymore :( PASTA might be not my best class, but so far, this class fits me best :'D. I love you girls, our randomness + baka-ness + craziness. Gonna miss this class so much~~~

Well, I don't want to expect too much for my new class. I just think that my school is the expert for making our nerve got wracked :( Sh*t, I might have to bear with the loneliness again. Hate all of these circumstances~

I'd better prepare my mind and heart. Stop playing around too much. Stop doing unnecessary things. Study hard. Give your every best efforts in anything you do. Stay away from laziness. Focus on my dreams. START EXECUTING MY DREAMS TO GET MY DREAM UNIVERSITY. And the most important is don't forget to pray to God~~


Saturday, July 09, 2011

Short Updates

Some new stuffs I got during this holiday :


Finally.. my first brand new Android phone! It's Xperia X10 Mini :) I have to say that this small phone is very SUPER. I could do many activities which I can't when I used the old Sony Ericsson one :D And the Wi-Fi facilities makes me like... WOAHHH for the first time :))
P.S : I already named it Tego >.<

All the specification can be seen here : http://www.sonyericsson.com/cws/corporate/products/phoneportfolio/specification/xperiax10mini

And...

My new hair cut! >.<
OMG I look very chubby there... Geeshh..
The hairstylist said that it is Japanese style, but I still didn't believe. It looks awful on me T.T

What do you think???

Lastly...

A new wristwatch!

It's soft blue which is my favorite color! Yeay~~

That's all for short updates. Gonna turn off this laptop bcos of the critical battery.
GOOD NIGHT~~~


Friday, July 08, 2011

How to Cure This Loneliness

credits : deviantArt

Basically, I am not the type of anti-social person, nor the person who easily feeling lonely. Literally. I AM NOT. But recently, I am easily feeling lonely even in a crowded place. Don't ask me why. I really know that loneliness has the power to destroy your social life and your self-confidence -____- And according to allaboutlifechallenges.org, loneliness is an intense feeling of being deserted or abandoned by everyone. If left untreated, loneliness can lead to other problems such as depression, feelings of uselessness, and lack of self-worth.

OMG. That's so true. I sometimes feel ignored by people around me. Is it just my feelings or not, I don't know. Peer pressure is tough too :( I want to get out from this loneliness feelings. Soon, very very soon. I don't want to be a loner.

Well, I just think that I am not alone. I am not the only one experiencing this phase of life, right? There are millions like me out there. I have to step out of my comfort zone, trying to mingle with everyone, not just my best friends. But ... but ... that will be difficult, at least for me, since everyone has their own GROUPS which probably will be hard for someone to get in -_____-

So maybe, I need to change my thought pattern. I must start listening to uplifting music, or read inspirational writing. So far, when I feel lonely, these two activity tend to ease my feelings of loneliness and back to the normal. ARASHI, NewS, Tegomass and other JE's songs are THE BEST MEDICINE FOR ME! And more importantly, I have to avoid negative thoughts. Start thinking about many positive things. BE POSITIVE :D

Just now, I read allaboutlifechallenges.org, and I can summarize about feeling lonely, like this :
While trying to fight loneliness, we sometimes convinced ourselves that nobody cares us anymore, right? I also feel this way. Unfortunately, this belief might makes you more feeling lonely. However, your every effort made, even though it's just a little, does mean a lot to someone. A simple 'thank you' to your servant, a smile for your teachers or friends or an accompany towards a blind man. These gestures might be insignificant to you. In fact, it is a significant for their lives. So, don't worry if people don't care about you, because you're mean the world for them. It's okay if your existence is in a hidden way. Don't be ashamed for that. It is important for universe, nowadays.

To conclude, being lonely is essential to understand the worth of a good company. As for me, I will know who is my real BEST FRIEND through this loneliness. Take your loneliness as a challenge and deal with it upfront!

Credits : allaboutlifechallenges.org

Well, out of topic, I am now thinking to..... SEARCH FOR A BOYFRIEND WHO CAN CURE ME FROM THIS LONELINESS~ hahaha (kayak ada aja yang mau jadi pacar lu, ni! LOL)

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Wednesday, July 06, 2011

Introducing : My Hamster^^

*ROFL*


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AAA CUTE SHO (L)

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OMG OMG Cuteness overload here


What's with that flashy yet colorful glasses? LOL


This hamster is AS HOT AS FIRE (y)


*brb dies*


I have to say... This HAMSTER (read : SAKURAI SHO) is ridiculously HANDSOME from every damn angle with any expression!!! Will be forever in love with this guy :D


Boredomness

Some random meme. Forgot to credit *sorry*

1) Have you ever been asked out?
Yes.

2) Where did you get your profile picture?
At my room.

3) What's your middle name?
I don't have. There are only first and surname :)

4) Your current relationship status?
Single and happy.

5) Does your crush like you back?
Tegoshi, would you like me back, huh? xD

6) What is your current mood?
Bored.

7) What color is your hair?
Pure black.

8) What color shirt are you wearing?
Purple and white colored.

9) Missing something?
School?

10) If you could go back in time and change something, what would you change?
There are tons of things that I want to change. For example, my personality and attitude, and my appearance.

11) If you must be an animal for one day, what?
A hamster, pls?

12) Ever had a near death experience?
Nope.

13) Something you do a lot?
reading some books, watching JDoramas, blogging and postcrossing

14) The song stuck in your head?
Aoi Bench - Tegomass!

15) Who did you copy and paste this from?
One random blog.

16) Name someone with the same birthday as YOU?
Serena William

17) When was the last time you cried?
I………don’t know.

18) Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
Yeah. When I was in my kindergarten and elementary school, I used to sing a lot in front of a large audience.

19) If you could have one super power what would it be?
To make EVERYTHING is free, easy to do and get, and unlimited for me.

20) What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Face? Eyes?

21) What do you usually order from starbucks?
Coffee!

22) What's your biggest secret?
Don't have any.

23) Favorite color?
Blue, Pink, Purple

24) Do you still watch kiddie shows?
Of course ^^

25) What are you?
I’m a scatterbrained-dreamer girl, an amateur blogger, a professional deadliner and a certified fangirl of Johnny's Entertainment :)

26) Do you speak any other language?
Yes.

27) What's your favorite smell?
Something flowery.

28) Describe your life in one word what would it be?
COMPLICATED? lol :D

29) What are you thinking about right now?
How to get rid of this damn boredomness...

30) What should you be doing?
Sleeping... or continue to watch some dramas or brainstorming about my kartul stuff.

33) Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
No one.

34) What is your natural hair color?
BLACK.

35) Who was the last person to make you cry?
No one.

TOMBOYISH OR GIRLY? (Bold the ones you are)

YOUR GUY SIDE:

You love hoodies.
You love jeans.
Dogs are better than cats.
It's hilarious when people get hurt.
You've played with/against boys on a team.
Shopping is torture.
Sad movies suck.
You own/ed an X-Box.
Played with Hotwheel cars as a kid.
At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
You own/ed a DS, PS2 or Sega.
You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
You watch sports on TV.
Gory movies are cool.
You go to your dad for advice.
You own like a trillion baseball caps.
You like going to high school football games.
You used to/do collect football/baseball cards.
Baggy pants are cool to wear.
It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
Sports are fun.
Talk with food in your mouth.
Sleep with your socks on at night.
You prefer rubber shoes and chuck tailors rather than high heels, doll shoes and sandals.

Total: 12

YOUR GIRL SIDE:

You wear lip gloss/stick. ( once in a while )
You love to shop.
You wear eyeliner.
You wear the color pink
Go to your mom for advice.
You consider cheerleading a sport.
You hate wearing the color black.
You like hanging out at the mall.
You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
You like wearing jewelry. ( a ring or earring, that all )
Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
You don't like the movie Star Wars.
You were in gymnastics/dance.
It takes you around/ more one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up.
You smile a lot more than you should.
You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
You care about what you look like.
You like wearing dresses when you can.
You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
You love the movies.
Used to play with dolls as little kid.
Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy/joke of it.
Like being the star of every thing

Total: 5

LOL with this. Probably I'm too BOYISH (Y)

BOLD What’s TRUE

It’s night right now.
There’s something else you should be doing at the moment.
You ate chicken today.
You are lactose intolerant.
There’s a nearby TV on.
You get along with your neighbors.
Twilight is a horrible series.
You’re hungry right now.
You have worked out today.
Running a mile sounds awful.
You have a job.
You love to bake Christmas cookies.
Your parents are still together.
You woke up before 11 this morning.
Baths are better than showers.
You are 5’5” or shorter.
You hate British accents.
Victoria’s Secret is a good store.
Cats are better than dogs.
The 90’s sucked.
Your cell phone is right next to you.
Your favourite colour is either blue or purple.
Your hair is short.
You are by yourself right now.
The last thing you drank was water.
You’re in your PJ’s right now.
Your hair color is natural.
Fred from Youtube is annoying.
You don’t drink soda.
There’s at least $20 in your wallet.
It’s cold out.
Orange juice is better than Apple juice.
You love someone right now.
Video games are awesome.
Your sheets are white.
You have read works by Shakespeare before.
You’ve been professionally diagnosed with a psychological disorder.
You know someone in the hospital right now.
You’ve showered today.
You know someone who has beaten cancer.
Sneakers are your favorite shoes to wear.
Chocolate is better than vanilla. <-- LIES
You’re allergic to peanuts.
You’ve never been to New York City.
You’ve never been on a varsity sports team.
You want to go to Europe. <-- F*CKING WANT!
You’re using a laptop right now.
Plastic surgery is a good idea.
Vanilla is the best scent a girl can wear.
You’ve made yourself throw up.
You have cheated on someone before.
Your friends do drugs.
School is too early.
Your nails/toe nails have nail polish on them right now.
You’re Italian.
You have a tan right now.
You bite your nails.
You’ve been on a diet before.
You shop in plus sized clothing stores.
Hot Topic is scary.
There are socks on your feet right now.
You’ve used a hair straightener.
Shopping online is easier than shopping in an actual store.
You’re in Verizon’s network.
Cheesecake is delicious.
Your BMI falls into the overweight category.
You have gotten your hair cut in the past month.
Your birthday is within the next 2 months.
You’ve been rejected.
Comedies are better than action films.
Math is the best subject.
You are fluent in more than one language.
You love Greek food.
You consider yourself a picky eater.
You have more than 3 pillows on your bed.
You live with at least one parent.
You’re happy right now.
You are a high school graduate.
You have a pet cat.
You were born before April 5th, 1991.
You have brown hair.
You have blue eyes.
You are in a relationship.
You can count to 20 in another language.
You have studied a foreign language.
You voted in the 2008 presidential election.
You own a vehicle that is older than a 2004.
You have worked 3rd shift.
You have worked in a fast food restaurant.
You drove somewhere that was further than a half hour away today.
You live in New Jersey.
You live in Montana.
You live in Pennsylvania.
Your last name begins with an ‘M’.
Your middle name begins with a ‘C’.
Your first name begins with an ‘S’.
You are older than 19.
You are younger than 16.
You are an only child.
Your parents are divorced.
Your parents are not married, but together.
You have more than one sibling.
You are a vegetarian.
You have a gym membership.
You are in the military.
You have a relative in the military.
You have been to Canada.
You have been to Mexico.
You have been to Europe.
You are currently enrolled in college/university.
You have done something you told yourself you wouldn’t.
You have braces.
You wear contact lenses.
You have a tattoo on your ankle.
You have a tattoo on your wrist.
You have a tattoo on your lower back.
You have a tattoo on your upper arm.
You have a lip piercing.
You have a tongue piercing.
You have your nipples pierced.
You have your cartilage pierced.
You have curly hair.
You have received flowers from someone in the last 2 months.
You are engaged.
You are married.
You have children.
You are an aunt or uncle.
Your bedroom walls are blue.
Your bedspread is red.
Your bedroom carpet is beige.
You have been out to eat at a sit-down restaurant in the last week.
You have been drunk in the past 24 hours.
You have lost your virginity before you turned 16.
You are bisexual.
You watch Scrubs. You watch Jon & Kate Plus 8.
You watch American Idol.
You Watch Glee.
You have been to the movies within the last month.
You have cursed in front of your grandparents.
You had a lunch box with a cartoon character on it when you were little.
You actually pay attention to politics.
You have kissed someone within the last week.
You have kissed three or more people in the past year.
You were told you looked cute today.
You were hugged today.
Your best friend is the opposite sex.
You had a date to prom.
You are a good speller.
You are always on time.
You have done something illegal within the last 24 hours.
You have ridden an elevator within the last 3 days.
You have spent the night at someone else’s house within the last 2 weeks.
You have been out of the country within the last year.
You love Chinese food.
You love Italian food.
You love Mexican food.
You love country music.
You love rap.
You love hip hop.
You love punk rock.
You love hard rock.
You love metal.
You love classic rock.
You love bluegrass.
You love oldies.
You love techno.
You love instrumental music.
You know someone younger than 10 who passed away. :’(
You have taken pictures of yourself just because you were bored.
You have been in a car wreck.
You have had stitches.
You have a parent who is a teacher.
You have a savings account.
You currently have a $2 bill in your possession.
You have dated someone who was 2 years younger than you.
You have dated someone who was 2 years older than you.
You have broken up with someone for someone else.
You have been cheated on.
You are Catholic.
You are Mormon.
You are Buddhist.
You wish at 11:11.
You have had your current job for more than 3 months.
You have had your heart broken.
You broke someone else’s heart.
You felt bad about it.
You have done something just for the fact that you were old enough to.
You have been to a cemetery at midnight.
You have been a vampire for Halloween.
You have been a witch for Halloween.
You have been a pumpkin for Halloween.
You have stayed up for 48 hours straight.
You have been to walmart in the past 3 days.
You own a pair of scrubs.
You own a cowboy hat.
You own a leather coat.
You are missing someone right now.
You have been let down recently.
You have had someone you thought you could trust betray you.
You would rather have a one-night stand than a relationship.
You would rather win $500 from the lottery, than guest on a game show.
You have met someone famous.

Tuesday, July 05, 2011

Postcrossing Project

Currently www.postcrossing.com has been the only site I'm addicted to. This website has the tagline 'send a postcard and receive a postcard back from a random person somewhere in the world'. I coincidentally found this awesome website from blogwalking activity which I usually do. Apparently, this postcrossing project has also been a trend among my friends :) They have joined this site much more earlier than me. I've already joined for about 1 month.


So far, I've sent 4 postcards to Thailand, China, Finland and Netherlands. And received 2 postcards from Netherlands and USA. I was a stamp-collector. I have up to 250 stamps (thanked Mom, for being kind to me :D ). And now, I think I will be the next postcard collector. It's a nice thing, right?

Below are two postcards from Andrea (id : catmom) - US and Paul (id : ouwe) - Netherlands



A pic from a maritime museum in Los Angeles (from US)


A boy in painting (from Netherlands)


And this is the postcard that I sent to Yvonne from Netherlands (id : toverfee199)

Mummified War God in Papua
(believe it or not, it's been favourited about 4 times *yeay*)


And this is some sneak-peek from my profile in postcrossing.com



I thanked God because I found this amazing website. And I also have to say that I'm lucky : my school is precisely located beside the central Post Office in Pasar Baru. It makes everything easier (to buy the stamp and to send the postcard). For me, Postcrossing Project is an another simply way to promote our country to the world. From the postcard, we can show to other people in other countries, our own culture, landscape, unique places, buildings, and so on. You can write about yourself, your country's culture or a phrase in your language to other people all over the world. Not only that, but also you can write some random quotes to give that people more spirit. You can write anything in the postcard.

In this globalization era, distance isn't the problem anymore. You can talk to the people who live million miles away far from you via social website, chat provider, Skype, etc. We live and travel in a world of instant information.

In contrast, postcard needs a lot of time to be arrived to your hand. It's not instant. I don't know what a postcard means for people nowadays (since the technology has occupied almost all field of life), but getting a postcard from an erratic stranger from somewhere in the world is fascinating! Waiting for a postcard to be arrived at your home thrills me for sure~ Not to mention, the sensation while you're writing the postcard... it's undescribable (you have to try it!)

And at least for me, it's very amazing to see people (who have different backgrounds than your own)'s handwriting :) Like this one :



Postcrossing is definitely has so many advantages and gives you new experiences. You can collect stamps and postcards, promote your country and having a bunch of new pen friends from all over the world! Interested? You should better join this project and spread a tiny postcard from Indonesia to all over the world~

P.S : For Indonesian fellas, you just need approx. IDR 8.000 (3.000 for the postcard and 5.000 for the stamp) to send A POSTCARD abroad.





This Old Man is ... LOVE ^^

This pictures below will show you how SILLY and DORKY this 30-year-old-man xD
And I'm in love with him^^

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LOL that face >.<

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*heart*

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That's so gay O.O

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ROFL

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*speechless*

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Yep, that's right

He's SATOSHI OHNO *who aged backwards*


OMG~


Found this at Valerie's blog~ That was the release dates for Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part 2...

I was like....

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Oh my God~ HOW ON EARTH THIS THING COULD HAPPEN?!!! It's THE FINAL PART which all people all over the world have been waiting for and it won't be released in Indonesiaaa, so I have to go to that countries on the list in a mere watch that movie?


Hello, Indonesian government, this is how you say "Holywood movies will be come back soon" ??

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-_________________-





Monday, July 04, 2011

Morning Light

It's definitely my favorite from their newest album "Beautiful World". And in fact, all songs in this album are surprisingly BEAUTIFUL~~~ I'm really proud to have them as my major idol~ They proved it through their 12 years existence. Yeay for ARASHI!


They are all look gorgeous in the booklet album, aren't they?

MORNING LIGHT
by : Arashi
時は満ち足り, go right now
目指すは遥か, promise land

星も見えないこの空に問いかけた
あの日の約束続きが見たいから

君がいつか知りたがってたエピローグ
走り続けて見つけたのは shining star

Through the night To the light To the morning light
また会う場所まで
どんな夜の未知も越え 走り抜ける
I know 開く瞳だけに映る夜明け前の darkness
星が空に帰る頃 行方照らしている morning light

時は満ち足り, go right now
目指すは遥か, promise land

分かっていたんだ いつの日か旅立つって
一言「さよなら」言えずに飛び出した

小さいころ怖がった夢の迷路
探して続けて見つけたのは guiding star

Through the night To the light To the morning light
明日は必ず
どんな長い未知も越え たどり着ける
今古い地図は捨てて進め動き出した future
きっとずっと忘れない 太陽にまた追いついても

朝を待つ花のように まるで永遠を知るように
僕らは見つめている 想いを握りしめて

Through the night To the light To the morning light
明日は必ず
どんな長い未知も越え たどり着ける

Through the night To the light To the morning light
また会う場所まで
どんな夜の未知も越え 走り抜ける
I know 開く瞳だけに映る夜明け前の darkness
星が空に帰る頃 行方照らしている morning light

時は満ち足り, go right now
目指すは遥か, promise land

Translation :

MORNING LIGHT

The time is right, go right now
Aim for the distance, the promise land

I asked a question to this sky that I can't see any stars in
Because I want to see the continuation of the promise from that day

The epilogue you wanted to know someday
What you found when you kept running was a shining star

Through the night To the light To the morning light
To the place we'll meet again
Overcome the unknown, no matter the night Run through it
I know The darkness before the dawn that reflects only on those open eyes
The stars in the sky when I go home The morning light that is shining the way

The time is right, go right now
Aim for the distance, the promise land

I knew it would happen Declaring one day I would start a journey
I rushed away without being able to say a single good-bye

In a maze of the dreams that scared me when I was a kid
What I found when I kept searching was a guiding star

Through the night To the light To the morning light
There's definitely a tomorrow
Overcome even the longest of the unknown I'll finally arrive there
Throw away that old map now and go forward to the future that has started moving
I'll definitely never forget Even if I catch up to the sun again

Like the flowers that wait for the morning As if they know of eternity
We're gazing at them While holding on tightly to our memories

Through the night To the light To the morning light
There's definitely a tomorrow
Overcome even the longest of the unknown I'll finally arrive there

Through the night To the light To the morning light
To the place we'll meet again
Overcome the unknown, no matter the night Run through it
I know The darkness before the dawn that reflects only on those open eyes
The stars in the sky when I go home The morning light that is shining the way

The time is right, go right now
Aim for the distance, the promise land

credits goes to yarukizero@LJ


Acrophobia

Everyone must has their own weaknesses, right? There are some people who are afraid of dark, bugs, any particular animals, or maybe ghosts? :) We call it : phobia

phobia

–noun
a persistent, irrational fear of a specific object, activity, or situation that leads to a compelling desire to avoid it.

Well, yeah... I have to admit that I have (probably an acute) ACROPHOBIA. You know what is it, right? Acrophobia is the most common phobia of someone, in my opinion. About 2 to 5 percents of the population have this kind of phobia. According to wikipedia.com, acrophobia is an EXTREME or irrational fear of heights. Acrophobic can experience a panic attack in a high place and become too agitated to get themselves down safely --> damn, it's true~~

When I stuck in a certain (very) high place, suddenly I feel like my head spin around when I try to look down. This happens mostly when I was involved in an outbound activities. Gosh, I'm gonna despise this kind of activities~ Believe it or not. I will stop and take a rest in every post~~~ My head is always spinning and suddenly I will feel dizzy.

Not only in outbound activities, but also in an amusement park --> at that place, there will be so many games, that mostly of them are located in a high place, right? Okay, let's go to the point --> I do HATE roller-coaster. Never in my life, I try those kind of games~ It's scary afterall. Why? Besides I have an acrophobia, be in a roller coaster always makes me feeling sick. You know, I can't stand the gravity~ That "light" sensation when the roller coaster goes down (after it goes up little by little) definitely makes me feel me nauseous and sick~~~ My bodily fluids and internal organs are pulled downwards and it's awkward :(( So... if you go with me to the amusement park, please, let me play the safety one! Or else you gotta kill me because of high~~~


That thing is FORBIDDEN in my lifeeeee
Will NEVER try to ride it!


This acrophobia has come with me since I was young. Maybe I inherited it from my father. It's in my genes~ Frankly speaking, my father is much worse than me. He rejected to ride the escalator if we go to a particular mall. He would choose to ride an elevator even though we just only want to go one floor upwards~~ See? I'm still stronger than him xD xD xD

And ah, by the way. This person may suffered from an acute acrophobia too :

SAKURAI SHO xD


He was keep screaming "STOP SHAKING IT!!!!" while Jun shook the wood xD


Silly Oh-chan~~ How on earth he could do that???


And.. this was me *surprisingly made an unnecessary peace-sign while I was doomed because of this acrophobia*


P.S : I'm now just hoping that this acrophobia is not getting any worse (Y)