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Keep Striving

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Long time no see, blogger :) I’ve finally come back after my first three days studying as a twelfth grader -______- Being a twelfth grader, sometimes makes me sick, either mentally or physically :( Today I’m going to blab in Bahasa (and a little English). It would be easier for me to convey all my heavy feelings in Bahasa. So yesterday, I cried during the night. I had a dilemma. No. It’s supposed to be QUATRILEMMA . I was totally GALAU last night. What’s for? I have confusion in whether I take the TOEFL iBT Course or not. Serius, kemarin saya sampai nangis-nangis mewek gak jelas sewaktu diminta mutusin apakah melanjutkan les TOEFL atau nggak. Kenapa saya galau? Masalahnya untuk melanjutkan les itu butuh 5,4 juta untuk 6 bulan! Bayangin dong, ini les selesainya Januari dan baru akan REAL TEST kemungkinan antara bulan Februari sampai Maret. IT’S TOO LONG! Apakah gak kelamaan? Yang ada semua uni luar juga udah selesai buka pendaftarannya~ Udah gitu gak ada jaminan langsung tes benerannya

Keep Calm and STRIVE TILL THE END

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Tomorrow... will definitely be the FIRST DAY of my ONE-YEAR-suffering and struggling. Loads of tests, tons of assignments, kartul, UAS, UN, uni-matters and so on. I don't know what to say. I have to be strong in both mentally and physically . Keep calm and STRIVE TILL THE END~ This year is suppose to be my last year to attend Ursuline school. It's been 14 years since my first time entering Ursuline school~ FIGHT! GANBARETSUGO~ You just need to be survived at least for another 9 MONTHS!!!

All I Want to do Now

I think I'm gonna explode today. I can't stand this circumstance anymore. This is more like... when a teenager rebelled -____- All I want to do now is... TO SCREAM TOWARDS THE OCEANNNNN.... I want to release all of my problems, my sadness, and this agitated feeling~~~ I want TO BE FREE as well as a bird~~~ Fly away from my problems x( P.S : someone please take me to the a certain place where I could release all my emotional feelings~~~

A Message to Heaven

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Dear Mom, Today is July 15th. Mom, should you're stay here with me, today would be your 43th birthday :')) HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! I know you're still there. Up there. In heaven :') Always looking at me and taking care of me :D It's been 5 years since you left me and dad. Time flies, no? Now I'm already in my last year in High School. One more step until I reach the university. You know mom, sometimes there is time that I missed you so much. I miss your smile, your chatter, and your expression when you scolded me :') I hope you will be always happy up there :'D And also, please send my prayer to God, mom :') Hope the best for my karya tulis, ujian sekolah, ujian nasional and also... what major I should take in the university :) Lastly... I want to present this for you :')) If I Saw You in Heaven (Eric Clapton) would you know my name if i saw you in heaven would it be the same if i saw you in heaven I must be strong and carry on 'cause i know i d

God Give Me Strength

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It's been 3 days since my first day in my senior year. How did ya feel? If I could describe my feeling, I would describe it with 7ICONS's song "Gak... gak... gak kuat... " HAHAHA But it's true. That's the best word that suitable with what I feel now. I'm feeling so weak, exhausted, useless and kind of... all my efforts during my first and second year was being taken for granted. I REGRETTED ENTERING SCIENCE CLASS. I'm not supposed to be in this major, I think. I want to take either Business Administration/Visual Communication Design/Art and Media in the university. So, why do I have to enter Science class? I think it was my biggest mistake :( But, nevertheless, dad always said that it's not wrong if I entered Science class. You probably burdened by tons of assignments, kartul matters, loads of test, etc. But in the end, you will get the benefit from it. You have to be a definite tough, not to be fragile here. But... HOW ? Today I arrived home at

XII IPA 1 / 13

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Welcoming my new class :) XII IPA 1 (I still can't believe I'm officially a 12th grader) Lucky I got the same class with some of my besties :D I'M SO HAPPY 'BOUT THAT *thank God you granted my wish* Another good thing was that I didn't get the same class with the genius one *you-know-who* . At least it wouldn't make me too depressed, at all :D At first, I thought this class was okay and the homeroom teacher was nice too. I hope so :D And anyway... XII IPA 1 / 13 --> it's lucky THIRTEEN \o.o/ God, why thirteen? I just hope that this number will bring me A BUNCH OF LUCK for this whole one year ^^ About being a twelfth grader... ah~ It's can't be described. So many stuffs you have to think more seriously. Time really flies, no? It felt like yesterday I just passed my first day in eleventh grade, but now, I'm already in my senior year. No more parties, no more ' hebeh-hebeh' . Just one more year in High School. I hope I could creat

Prepare My Mind and Heart

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Kay. IT'S OVER. HOLIDAY IS OVER. Tomorrow I gotta go to school (again) for like 3856 times in my life -_____- I'm officially 12th grader *sigh* Just another one year before I finally reach university. Gonna be my last year being in the Ursuline school :( I SHOULD enjoy all this-one-year to the fullest. But the question is : CAN I? New class, definitely. I think I will never get a class like PASTA anymore :( PASTA might be not my best class, but so far, this class fits me best :'D. I love you girls, our randomness + baka-ness + craziness. Gonna miss this class so much~~~ Well, I don't want to expect too much for my new class. I just think that my school is the expert for making our nerve got wracked :( Sh*t, I might have to bear with the loneliness again. Hate all of these circumstances~ I'd better prepare my mind and heart. Stop playing around too much. Stop doing unnecessary things. Study hard. Give your every best efforts in anything you do. Stay away from lazin

Short Updates

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Some new stuffs I got during this holiday : Finally.. my first brand new Android phone! It's Xperia X10 Mini :) I have to say that this small phone is very SUPER. I could do many activities which I can't when I used the old Sony Ericsson one :D And the Wi-Fi facilities makes me like... WOAHHH for the first time :)) P.S : I already named it Tego >.< All the specification can be seen here : http://www.sonyericsson.com/cws/corporate/products/phoneportfolio/specification/xperiax10mini And... My new hair cut! >.< OMG I look very chubby there... Geeshh.. The hairstylist said that it is Japanese style, but I still didn't believe. It looks awful on me T.T What do you think??? Lastly... A new wristwatch! It's soft blue which is my favorite color! Yeay~~ That's all for short updates. Gonna turn off this laptop bcos of the critical battery. GOOD NIGHT~~~

How to Cure This Loneliness

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credits : deviantArt Basically, I am not the type of anti-social person, nor the person who easily feeling lonely. Literally. I AM NOT. But recently, I am easily feeling lonely even in a crowded place. Don't ask me why. I really know that loneliness has the power to destroy your social life and your self-confidence -____- And according to allaboutlifechallenges.org , l oneliness is an intense feeling of being deserted or abandoned by everyone. If left untreated, loneliness can lead to other problems such as depression, feelings of uselessness, and lack of self-worth. OMG. That's so true. I sometimes feel ignored by people around me. Is it just my feelings or not, I don't know. Peer pressure is tough too :( I want to get out from this loneliness feelings. Soon, very very soon. I don't want to be a loner. Well, I just think that I am not alone. I am not the only one experiencing this phase of life, right? There are millions like me out there. I have to step out of my comf

Improvement Begins with I

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credits : thingsweforget@bs

Introducing : My Hamster^^

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*ROFL* AAA CUTE SHO (L) OMG OMG Cuteness overload here What's with that flashy yet colorful glasses? LOL This hamster is AS HOT AS FIRE (y) *brb dies* I have to say... This HAMSTER (read : SAKURAI SHO) is ridiculously HANDSOME from every damn angle with any expression!!! Will be forever in love with this guy :D

Boredomness

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Some random meme. Forgot to credit *sorry* 1) Have you ever been asked out? Yes. 2) Where did you get your profile picture? At my room. 3) What's your middle name? I don't have. There are only first and surname :) 4) Your current relationship status? Single and happy. 5) Does your crush like you back? Tegoshi, would you like me back, huh? xD 6) What is your current mood? Bored. 7) What color is your hair? Pure black. 8) What color shirt are you wearing? Purple and white colored. 9) Missing something? School? 10) If you could go back in time and change something, what would you change? There are tons of things that I want to change. For example, my personality and attitude, and my appearance. 11) If you must be an animal for one day, what? A hamster, pls? 12) Ever had a near death experience? Nope. 13) Something you do a lot? reading some books, watching JDoramas, blogging and postcrossing 14) The song stuck in your head? Aoi Bench - Tegomass! 15) Who did you copy and paste this

Postcrossing Project

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Currently www.postcrossing.com has been the only site I'm addicted to. This website has the tagline 'send a postcard and receive a postcard back from a random person somewhere in the world'. I coincidentally found this awesome website from blogwalking activity which I usually do. Apparently, this postcrossing project has also been a trend among my friends :) They have joined this site much more earlier than me. I've already joined for about 1 month. So far, I've sent 4 postcards to Thailand, China, Finland and Netherlands. And received 2 postcards from Netherlands and USA. I was a stamp-collector. I have up to 250 stamps (thanked Mom, for being kind to me :D ). And now, I think I will be the next postcard collector. It's a nice thing, right? Below are two postcards from Andrea (id : catmom) - US and Paul (id : ouwe) - Netherlands A pic from a maritime museum in Los Angeles (from US) A boy in painting (from Netherlands) And this is the postcard that I sent to Y

This Old Man is ... LOVE ^^

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This pictures below will show you how SILLY and DORKY this 30-year-old-man xD And I'm in love with him^^ LOL that face >.< *heart* That's so gay O.O ROFL *speechless* Yep, that's right He's SATOSHI OHNO *who aged backwards*

OMG~

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Found this at Valerie 's blog~ That was the release dates for Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part 2... I was like.... Oh my God~ HOW ON EARTH THIS THING COULD HAPPEN ?!!! It's THE FINAL PART which all people all over the world have been waiting for and it won't be released in Indonesiaaa, so I have to go to that countries on the list in a mere watch that movie? Hello, Indonesian government, this is how you say "Holywood movies will be come back soon" ?? -_________________-

Morning Light

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It's definitely my favorite from their newest album "Beautiful World" . And in fact, all songs in this album are surprisingly BEAUTIFUL ~~~ I'm really proud to have them as my major idol~ They proved it through their 12 years existence. Yeay for ARASHI! They are all look gorgeous in the booklet album, aren't they? MORNING LIGHT by : Arashi 時は満ち足り, go right now 目指すは遥か, promise land 星も見えないこの空に問いかけた あの日の約束続きが見たいから 君がいつか知りたがってたエピローグ 走り続けて見つけたのは shining star Through the night To the light To the morning light また会う場所まで どんな夜の未知も越え 走り抜ける I know 開く瞳だけに映る夜明け前の darkness 星が空に帰る頃 行方照らしている morning light 時は満ち足り, go right now 目指すは遥か, promise land 分かっていたんだ いつの日か旅立つって 一言「さよなら」言えずに飛び出した 小さいころ怖がった夢の迷路 探して続けて見つけたのは guiding star Through the night To the light To the morning light 明日は必ず どんな長い未知も越え たどり着ける 今古い地図は捨てて進め動き出した future きっとずっと忘れない 太陽にまた追いついても 朝を待つ花のように まるで永遠を知るように 僕らは見つめている 想いを握りしめて Through the night To the light To the morning light 明日は必ず どんな長い未知も越え たどり着ける Through the night

Acrophobia

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Everyone must has their own weaknesses, right? There are some people who are afraid of dark, bugs, any particular animals, or maybe ghosts? :) We call it : phobia phobia –noun a persistent, irrational fear of a specific object, activity, or situation that leads to a compelling desire to avoid it. Well, yeah... I have to admit that I have (probably an acute) ACROPHOBIA . You know what is it, right? Acrophobia is the most common phobia of someone, in my opinion. About 2 to 5 percents of the population have this kind of phobia. According to wikipedia.com, acrophobia is an EXTREME or irrational fear of heights. Acrophobic can experience a panic attack in a high place and become too agitated to get themselves down safely --> damn, it's true~~ When I stuck in a certain (very) high place, suddenly I feel like my head spin around when I try to look down. This happens mostly when I was involved in an outbound activities. Gosh, I'm gonna despise this kind of a