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My Heart is Waiting for You

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If we destined to be together, we shall bond again :') - E.S Just wondering... if someone will come to take me out from this emptiness of life...

Broken Hope

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Untuk ke sekian kalinya harapan gue dihancurkan lagi oleh seseorang. Makasih banyak lho :') Dari gue niat banget ngelakuin hal itu sampe udah hopeless gamau ngapain2. Sekarang udah ga bisa dan ga perlu lagi terlalu banyak bergantung ama orang lain, do it on your own, Ni. Don't make others ruin your hopes, your dreams.

They Were... Right

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Banyak orang yang bilang... masa-masa SMA itu masa terindah dalam hidup. Sudah 6 bulan lebih sejak gue lulus dari SMA. Dan apa yang dibilang orang-orang itu memang benar... Dunia kuliah sesungguhnya jauh lebih "kejam". I'm not trying to be exaggerate, but.. the truth is. So far banyak banget gue menemukan orang-orang yang dari luarnya baik, ternyata dalemnya busuk bukan main. And believe it or not, I can tell it from reading their face. Or maybe I could say... terlalu banyak "musuh dalam selimut". Dan itu jauh lebih berbahaya daripada musuh yang secara terang-terangan membenci lo. Semakin tua gue semakin menyadari bahwa hidup itu keras. Searching a true friend, here, in college life, is somehow hard... Maintaining a friendship is still the hardest part for me. I'm still on my way to search for a real best friend in life... Kayaknya sekian dulu post galau ini. Kadang gue suka heran kenapa isi blog gue ini terlalu melankolis, sedih, galau. Gak jauh-jauh d

Hanabira Giveaway

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Hi readers :) To celebrate the 6-months-versary of my lovely online shop, Hanabira , I make a giveaway. So, here's the rules : Hanabira Awesome November Giveaway  Period : 14 November 2012 - 26 November 2012 RULES : 1. Like this page first (go to http://www.facebook.com/HanabiraOnlineShop ) (+5 points) 2. Follow our Twitter ( @HanabiraShoppe ) (+4 points) 3. Promote our shop to 5 people of your friends (real Twitter account, please) (+3 points) 4. Share this picture to your FACEBOOK TIMELINE and some of your friend's or page account by clicking "SHARE" button in this photo ( every picture you share worth +1 points - you can share AS MUCH AS YOU CAN ^^) 5. After you're done with steps 1-4, tweet "I want to win November Giveaway from @HanabiraShoppe" (+2 points) For EXTRA POINTS (optional) : 1. Give a comment of any items on http://www.facebook.com/HanabiraOnlineShop   (+4 points) If you're done, pleas

A Person with No Will to Fight, Will Never Be Happy

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So yea... this is me. Recently. Didn't gain any weight -____- I'm not chubby anymore :( College life is slowly killing me. Life is really hard. As a sophomore, I am still "free". I don't join any organizations. You might think I am unsocial? Unfortunately I have to say yes... I haven't found a place where I could enjoy to be myself. Haven't found partners who have the same perspectives as mine. I have gone so many organization's interviews, but no results. I still don't get accepted :( I don't know what's wrong with me. Well.. all I need to do now  is to stay focus on the academic things. GPA is the most important thing, at least for now... There haven't been any people who I could talk everything to... So, writing is kinda my sanctuary. It's always been relaxing after I writing some posts, here, in this lovely blog :') And moreover, this makes me look like a-total-introvert, ya know x)) I'm gonna FIGHT no matter

To My Present Self

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Dear present self, Why you keep on tearing yourself down? You are always upset, even when there's actually nothing to be upset of. You make things complicated when it should be simple. What are your plans? I know you have dreams you wanted to pursue but the problem with you is that, you know the opportunity is just right in front of you but you don't grab it. Your stubborn mind stops you from doing those things that will make you happy. You are nothing but a coward who only knows how to hide and pretend. How long you intend to remain like that? You expect too much from yourself. That expectation is the ultimate reason why instead of being contented, you are asking for more.  You are truly blessed compare to others so please stop your absurdity. Be grateful. You need to focus on the beautiful events in your life, not unto the problems. Come out of your shell. Don't live in the world's standards. Don't strive to become popular. You shouldn't care what others t

Things I Want to Treasure in Life

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Picture credit to Jeanice (@em_jeanices) Thank you for being such best friends in these past 2 years :")

Undisclosed Feelings

Akhirnya baru sempat menemukan waktu dan mood yang tepat untuk nge-post lagi. Apa kabar gue? Yah, masih begini-begini aja kok gue. Masih single and (not) very happy :P Iya kok. Masih belum happy aja sama kehidupan kampus gue. Don't ask me why deh. Tolong jangan salahkan gue kalau blog ini isinya melankolis semua. Khususnya yang suka baca blog ini (ya kali kayak ada yang baca aja). Ya karena hidup gue begini-begini aja. Bukan berarti gue gak bersyukur. Tapi... hidup gue masih seperti ini saja *pengen nangis di pojokan*. Gak berubah banyak. Cuma di blog ini gue bisa menumpahkan "my undisclosed feelings" *duh bahasa gue*  Sampai saat inipun.. Masih belum bisa 100% happy di kampus... Selalu ada penyesalan. Kenapa gue harus masuk kampus ini... Karena jujur aja kampus ini seolah cuma sudden-decision dari gue aja. Dari awal gak pernah lho kepikiran sekali pun untuk kuliah di sini... Dari dulu... cuma pengen kuliah di luar negeri. Titik. Ya, mungkin Tuhan mengingatkan gue. K

My Favorite Drama Line

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"Should I lend you a place to cry? I guess you don't like it when it's me Just think of me as stuffed animal costume and close your eyes." - Sprout, Episode 6 OMG Hayato you know how to win a girl's heart <3 i="i"> Yesh. That's Lewis Jesse. My current bias I don't wanna admit that he is just 16 years old. Oh boy, you are too hot and sexy for being 16 years old :O

Sweet Little Surprise

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Jadi di tanggal 26 September kemarin, gue genap 19 tahun men. Haha. Udah 19 tahun tapi muka masih imut-imut gini ckck *narsis dikit boleh lah* Umur boleh nambah, tapi muka harus tetep awet muda #SIKAP Terus... gue bersyukurrr banget dapet surprise dari ketiga temen kuliah gue :"") Kita baru deket selama sebulan ini dan bersyukur banget gue bisa kenal mereka bertiga. Sebenernya sih, kita kenalan dari Twitter loh, beberapa hari sebelum ospek kampus. Lucu ya. Tapi anehnya pas ketemu, langsung klop aja gituh kita bertiga B) Ya jadinya ternyata mereka bertiga sudah merencanakan bakal kasih surprise ke gue HAHAHA. Dari pagi masuk kampus, mereka bertiga sama sekali gak ngucapin selamat ulang tahun. Gue pikir ya wajar aja lah 'kan kita baru sebulan temenan gitu. Mungkin aja mereka gak tau kan gue ultah kapan. Eh... ternyata... gue dikasih surprise yang menurut gue sweettt banget. Paling sweet selama 19 tahun gue hidup *okeh lebay* Jadi pas kelar kelas, si Desy sama Yeni

Gagal untuk Sukses

Hari ini gue gagal lagi. Gagal jadi panitia cabutan acara di kampus. Yah gak usah heranlah, wawancara OSIS SMA aja gue gagal total. Haha. Entah mau gimana lagi. Gue cuma bisa ketawa miris. Udah 2x gue gagal, berarti gue emang gak pantes buat ikut organisasi2an... Ha.. Sedih. Parah. Kalau dianalogikan pasar, gue ini layaknya unskilled labor. Terlalu banyak substitusinya jadinya sering terjadi excess supply. Excess supply artinya gak laku, gak ada yang mau make. Oh my. Itu amit2 banget kalo kebawa sampe ke dunia kerja. Ya Tuhan tolong bantu :(( Mungkin gue emang gak pantes ada di organisasi apapun. Gue emang pecundang. Looser. Tapi ntungnya bukan cuma gue yang gagal. Temen2 deket gue juga gak lolos. Jangan tanya kenapa. Terlalu banyak faktor X yang berpengaruh. Satu hal yang mengusik gue. Ketika lo punya niat, punya keinginan untuk. belajar, tapi gak dikasih kesempatan, gimana caranya lo bisa maju dan mengembangkan diri coba sih? Persetan dengan janji2 manis juga promosi yg pers

A New Phase in My Life

Oh my God. Besokbesokbesok. Gue udah ospek -___- Bukan siswi lagi, tapi MAHASISWI . Entah  kenapa rasanya gue gak gitu semangat dan gak begitu excited menghadapinya. Name tag oren dan ijo muda sih udah siap dari kemaren2. Terus ceritanya udah hampir selesai packing buat camping fakultas *cieee* Kesannya gue emang terlalu rajin. Tapi bukan! Gue tipe orang yang paling benci nyiapin sesuatu tuh pake acara mepet segala. Jadi panik dan ga bisa mikir tau! Hahaha. Jadinya lebih baik, sebelum gue tepar karena ospek itu, gue mulai packing dari sekarang. Oke lupakan itu dulu. Besok selama 3 hari ke depan, gue bakal berangkat sebelum matahari terbit dan pulang setelah matahari terbenam. Oh God x____x Pokoknya hari ini harus tidur cepet! Entah gimana caranya. Semoga temen-temennya baik baik ya Tuhan, dan gampang diajak ngobrol *AMINAMINAMIN* Kabarnya sih 3 hari itu kita cuma diceramahin segala macem sama dosen dan dekan, terus katanya gak boleh jalan2 keliling Atma dan diam di tempat. Tempat kump

Marquez #93

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MotoGP Quiz 1. MotoGP rider that’s my all time favourite Valentino Rossi and now... Marc Marquez! 2.  MotoGP rider  I don’t like Dani Pedrosa! Ugh. Sorry, I don't like his riding style~~ too safe :p 3.   MotoGP rider  I’d like to have a conversation with Valentino Rossi, Marc Marquez, Nicky Hayden, Andrea Dovizioso, Casey Stoner 4.   MotoGP rider  I’d like to come back Super Sic #58 T__T 5.   MotoGP rider  that deserves more credit Ben Spies and Cal Crutchlow 6.   MotoGP rider  that will be a team boss one day Jorge Lorenzo 7.   MotoGP rider  I would marry Marc Marquez. period :) 8.   MotoGP rider  I would like to go on a date with Marc Marquez 9.   MotoGP rider  I’d be happy to give a new haircut Valentino Rossi 10.   MotoGP rider  with the best clothing styl e Marc Marquez 11.   MotoGP rider  most people like but I don’t Dani Pedrosa 12.   MotoGP rider  I find the hottest Marc Marquez and Nicky Hayden 13.   MotoGP rider  I find the ugliest Nope :p 14. 

Dream

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And even if no one supports my dreams, my effort... No one helps... I will stick to my belief. Keep on believing the power of dreams... Keep on fighting with my own power... And keep praying... A poem by Peter S. Quinn Believe in your destiny It’s full of everything you love Dreams that might become free Full magical moods there of It’s a way of your own day Making it clear and bright As every temperament play From your onward own flight Those yesterdays weren’t that clear But now there is all tomorrow With your own oars to steer Flows of the waves that borrow In green fields of happiness And everything in it to be true With your own destiny caress On to the heaven of the blue Believe in all that’s beautiful Sky of the far and the deep Never let those colors be dull They are yours forever to keep It’s a way of your own day That you can reach to and try There need not be any of gray To reach your own goal and fly

Over

... it has been a long nightmare for me, and thank God, it's OVER now. I'm officially free. Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

Ohno-sama

Oke. Ceritanya gue LULUS SMA nih :') Akhirnya gue bebas dari penjara itu xD Nilainya? Ya gitu dah haha. Nilai UN murni : 54,45 >> angka cantik bro B) Nilai US : 52,41 Nilai Akhir : 53,70 Not badlah. Gue udah kayak gapeduli nilai yang penting gua lulus. Oke jadi rencana setelah semua hutang ini terbayar lunas adalah misi penggendutan badan. Ini yang utama dan terutama! Masih butuh 5-6 kg lagi untuk dapet berat ideal -___- Terus selanjutnya download Beautiful World Concert dan Waku-Waku Gakkou! Gua pengen ngeliat performnya Niji no Kakeraaa <3 Bet it was beautiful as the name has said : BEAUTIFUL world Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

A Dream of a Fangirl

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Found this on tumblr : "You may not know it Jun, but Arashi was already able to link different countries around the world. We may be of different races and cultures, but all of us have one thing in common, that is the undying love for you guys. Your music inspired everyone of us. The challenges you’ve faced until you reached the peak of stardom have became an inspiration for us to never give up. It may not be today or sooner but for sure, we will come there in Japan. We will fulfill our dream of someday, be able to sing “Arashi, Arashi, for dream” together with more than 70,000 fans in your Kokuritsu concert." suddenly cried after reading this T_____T And yes......  that dream will be always live in my heart . GO TO JAPAN AND ATTENDING ARASHI'S CONCERT. Someday, I will surely come to your concert, and sing along with more than 70.000 fans in Kokuritsu concert :''''''''''''') I'm gonna work hard to fulfill

Beautiful World

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“This is just my opinion, but I think perhaps ‘Beautiful World’ has already existed. Not something we need to create, instead it’s already here in this world. I think the problem lays in with whom we’re seeing it with. Family, friends, someone we love – someone precious, a senpai, a kouhai, grandfather, grandmother and others. The world we see with these people beside us, I think that’s the ‘Beautiful World’. It’s about how we’re going to see it, and at that time whom we’re seeing it with. This one with this person, another with that person, something like that. Not someone who’s conveniently there, but someone with whom we’re going to happily see it together, and I’d like you to choose these people from now on. For me, it’s these four guys. This beautiful world right here that I’m seeing together with these four guys, is truly a ‘Beautiful World’. I’ve had a great time. Thank you.” -Ninomiya Kazunari

So True

I like being alone, but I hate the feeling of being lonely. When you’re alone, you have time for yourself. Your thoughts finally catch up to you. You set your mind on things and everything is just clearer. Nothing’s bothering you and everything just feels right for once. When you feel lonely, you feel as if no one’s there for you. It feels like no one understands you or is willing to listen. It feels like you’re screaming in a crowded room, yet not one person hears you. Credits : tumblr

Paperdoll

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My first attempt making Arashi's paperdoll : Kageyama (Sakurai Sho in NazoDi) in hakama ^^ kyuuunnn :)) At first, I thought making a paperdoll is very easy. But I was wrong... it's somehow quite difficult, specially for making hands and feet parts :( Look at my paperdoll above, it's stil kinda messy and untidy hahaha. This is my very first time making such a paperdoll. Gonna try Arashi's Wild at Heart paperdoll on the next day^^ 

Gloomy All The Way

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Giveaway #1

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Travelling around the world has always been my dream since I was I child. I live in Indonesia by the way. Recently, I run a small business. I sell clothing items in an online store called "Machino Hanabira Shop". I'm willing to do it in order to fulfill my dreams : to be able to travel around the world. I really want to go to Greece. As usual, I try to ask Google for the pictures :) Guess what country it is ? Yes. It's ITALY :) Italy is also one of my Top 10 must-places-to-go list. I really hope someday I could travel there, bring my parents to go there, as a sign of my gratefulness for them^^ Someday... yes :) Then, I found this giveaway on Facebook :) It's not wrong to give it a try, isn't it? Maybe the goddess of fortune  turns her face on me ;) Sparkling Reviews  (click on the words!)  is giving away : A Trip to Italy and 2 $1000 Visa Gift Card! The winner will receive : - A 6 day and 7 night all inclusive trip to Italy. This is for 3 people. P

Untitled

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Yes, in the most wonderful way. They lit up a fire and spread warmth in my life. I would most probably be depressed for my whole life if not for them. I love them very much <3 They are my inspiration, motivation and my soul :) I know, they even don't know me. But I will still support them, no matter what. I'm not that kind of fanatic fans. After all these days seeing my friends talking about KPop and stuffs *sigh*. I'm still the only one who totally devote myself for JPop rather than KPop. Seems I'm always against the mainstream *oh yeah so true*. I don't really have friends who don't like any of those. Especially KPop. Why God? -___________- Ah okay, forget that matters, if I continue to rant maybe people who read this post might be hurt. I'm sorry, I just try to convey all my feelings ;) Now, I want to show you some pictures of Mukai Osamu, my favorite Japanese actor. I recently watch his drama titled "Hungry". "Hungry" prov

I Need Somebody

Kayaknya gua memang benar-benar butuh seseorang yah. Butuh seseorang yang bisa gua andalkan. Yang bisa menyentuh hati gua. Yang selalu mensupport gua. Yang bisa menghormati keputusan gua. Yang rela berkorban dan mau melindungi gua. Yang selalu ada sama gua. Yang bisa jadi sahabat sekaligus pacar. Yang mau bikin gua ketawa di saat gua sedang gloomy. Yang mau membiarkan gua menangis sepuasnya di pundaknya. Yang peduli sama gua. Yang menerima gua apa adanya. Yang setia. Yang sayang sama gua dan keluarga gua. Yang rela jadi sopir pribadi gua. Yang bisa gua peluk. Tempat menumpahkan segala curhatan gua. Yang selalu memanjakan gua. Yang nomor 1 di hati gua. Semoga bisa mendapatkan sosok itu secepatnya. AMIN deh :') Akhirnya, maafkan post tengah malam seorang gadis 18 tahun yang galau karena tak punya pacar ini. Sekian. Terima kasih. Salam galau. Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

100 Truths of Me

Don't know why I am interested and copied it, here's the 100 truth of me that I did. NAME: Eugenia Septhariani AGE: 18 years old and 7 months BIRTHDATE: September 26 1993 PRESENT ADDRESS: Cawang Kaveling, East Jakarta WHAT WAS YOUR : 1. Last beverage = mineral water 2. Last phone call = my dad 3. Last text message = my friend (four hours ago) 4. Last song you listened to = Movin' On - Arashi 5. Last time you cried = I seldom cry, therefore I forget this one (^_^) HAVE YOU EVER : 6. Dated someone twice = never 7. Been cheated on = never 8. Kissed someone & regretted it = never 9. Lost someone special = forgot 10. Been depressed = almost everytime now 11. Been drunk and threw up = never LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS : 12. Blue 13. Purple 14. White THIS YEAR HAVE YOU : 15. Made a new friend = I guess yes, but it comes and goes. 16. Fallen out of love = nope :( 17. Laughed until you cried = Yes! Just now 18. Met someone who changed you = I think

Forever My Soul :)

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Credits : Tumblr And yes... I love five of them, because... they are ARASHI :)