Mind Wanderer

Akhirnya hari ini gue menyempatkan diri untuk menulis sebuah post yang yah... gak begitu penting sih sebenernya, cuma refleksi hidup saja... Hari ini post-nya bakal terdengar melankolis dan galau lagi nyahahaha :)) Maklumin ajalah yak, udah 20 tahun gini, masih aja betah ngejomblo, jadinya suka kesepian gitu di malam minggu yang syahdu ini :3 Jadi.. hari ini gue merasakan kembali "that socially awkward feelings" . Untuk kesekianratus kalinya, gue gak pernah "dianggap" sama orang-orang di sekeliling. I choose to alienate myself from crowd bcos I don't feel comfortable with my surroundings. Like, you have already given your eveything, done your best, and people just walk away with it. Orang gak peduli sama apa yang telah lo alami dan rasakan. They never know how hard you fight, how hard you try, how loud you cry, and so on. Dan gue sadar yang selama ini gue butuhkan bukan cinta, tapi perhatian. HAHAHA. Sounds cliche, but true.  Tapi.. gue selalu introspeks...

Tomorrow... will definitely be the FIRST DAY of my ONE-YEAR-suffering and struggling. Loads of tests, tons of assignments, kartul, UAS, UN, uni-matters and so on. I don't know what to say. I have to be strong in both mentally and physically . Keep calm and STRIVE TILL THE END~ This year is suppose to be my last year to attend Ursuline school. It's been 14 years since my first time entering Ursuline school~ FIGHT! GANBARETSUGO~ You just need to be survived at least for another 9 MONTHS!!!

Today, I browsed to some of my friend blogs. Well, a post that caught my attention is about... being a fangirl. And it makes me inspired now, to write about this thing. Hmm, I think this ' sacred ' word has occupied my mind.. for at least these 3 past year. I currently being a fangirl for Johnny's Entertainment. They are : Arashi, NewS, Tegomass and Hey! Say! JUMP! But fortunately, I won't let this 'expensive yet a' habit scatter TOO MUCH on my blog. Reading some old entries of my blog... My blog supposed to be full of optimism and cheerfulness. Two thing that owned myself 3 years ago. Before I studying at my current all girl high school which drives me crazy and sometimes feeling lonely. Not because of the tons of assignment.... I have to say it's about friend. Peer pressure is tough -_____- I sometimes bash people at the back, I'm really sorry. It only because they don't even show a respect for me. I despise those hatred gaze towards me. Is it wr...

MORNING! tadi bokap ikut rapat ortu di skolah.. gw juga dateng sih, gara-gara mau latihan senam.. haha. endingnya pake lagu : gimmick game by nino (senangnya ni lagu bisa dipake), we are the champions by crazy frog, what time is it by HSM cast (cool!), satu lagi my heart will go on by celine dion (lebay abis di bagian interlude nya). haha. so far, udah lumayan bagus kok. tinggal jessica aja yang blon latihan. oya kan lagipula hari senin pulang jam 10. jadi setiap jam pelajaran cuma tinggal 25 menit. duh, semoga jam olahraga deh yang kepotong banyak. hehe (*evil smile*) eniwei, back to the main topic : rapat ortu.. rapat ortu kali ini ngomongin masalah ujian yang bejibun.. UAS II, UN, US Tertulis, US Praktek. udah gitu standar kelulusan jadi 5.50. udah gitu pas UN ngebuletinnya harus bener2 bulet + hitam.. and the important point is : nomor identitas harus betul! fatal kalo salah... hari ini juga dibagiin rapot nilai TO.. so far, so good nilainya kalo dirata-rata 8 koma.. amin! smoga ...

sorry guys, i haven't updated my blog yet. well, i'm quite busy for school. and my computer was broken for this past three days. fortunately my dad brought it to the technician and here it is : my computer is okay now! thanks dad! lol. well yeah, things went good for a week. on the day after tomorrow, I will join the "Lomba Kording Tingkat DKI Jakarta". you know what? the day is same with Sancta Ursula's day for uniform measurement, shoes, and so on. the important thing right now is how could I get on time for Sancta Ursula. ahh.. I just can pray to God. let Him help me to manage the time. move to another topic. on monday till tuesday, I will join the second trial exams. I have studied seriously that I can do. please pray for me ya guys. I hope that the result is better than the first exam, especially for bahasa indonesia lesson. that was my bad. I promise I'll do my best! enough today. I wanna complete my tasks and study for the test tomorrow. bye bye! God Bl...

*drumroll effect* tada... this is my 55th post! yeay! you know, i feel happy now XD. i've told about Vivaldi's biography in front of my class in a good way. and the Four Season played well. thanks God! i could do it well. so i'm feel free now! feel free from the music! for your information, i didn't choose beethoven either chopin. i was confused to decided, man. by the way, thanks, vivaldi :) now, i'd like to prepare myself for the 3 busy days to go! my waiting list : 1. the making of year book (tomorrow!) 2. LPJ OSIS 3. science competition (ah.. i always lazy talk about this) arghh.. it seemed so hard to do! but i keep try to do my best.. and i'm still hoping that i can be accepted in Sancta Ursula High School. help me God! well, i'm still hoping it because that school is the only school i choose. keep spirit! ganbatte kudasai, ne!^^ enough for today. gotta eat my dinner^^ i hope y'all like my post! xx, eugenia